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𝖢𝗁𝖾𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—π–Ίπ—‡π–½π—Œ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π—Œπ–Όπ—Žπ–Ώπ–Ώπ–Ύπ–½, π—Œπ–Όπ—‹π–Ίπ—π–Όπ—π–Ύπ–½ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—Œπ–Όπ—‹π–Ίπ—‰π–Ύπ–½, π—ˆπ—‹ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π—‰π—ˆπ—…π—‚π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–½, 𝗀𝗅𝖺𝗓𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—€π—…π—ˆπ—Œπ—Œπ–Ύπ–½, 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝖺𝗂𝗇 π—‰π—ˆπ—π–Ύπ—‹π–Ώπ—Žπ—…. 𝖳𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗁𝖺𝗇𝖽𝗅𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—Œπ–Ίπ—†π–Ύ, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗋𝗁𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗆 π—‹π–Ύπ—†π–Ίπ—‚π—‡π—Œ π—Žπ—‡π–»π—‹π—ˆπ—„π–Ύπ—‡ π—π—π—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—€π— π–Ίπ—€π–Ύπ—Œ, π—€π–Ύπ—‡π–Ύπ—‹π–Ίπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡π—Œ, π–Όπ—’π–Όπ—…π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—€π–Ύπ—Œ. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—π–Ίπ—‡π–½π—Œ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π–Ίπ—…π—π–Ίπ—’π—Œ 𝖺 π—Œπ—π–Ύπ—‰ 𝖺𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π–Ίπ—…π—π–Ίπ—’π—Œ 𝖺 π—Œπ—π–Ύπ—‰ 𝖻𝖾𝗁𝗂𝗇𝖽. π–³π—ˆπ—ˆ π—Œπ—…π—Žπ—€π—€π—‚π—Œπ— 𝖺𝗍 π—π—‚π—†π–Ύπ—Œ, π–»π—Žπ— π—†π—ˆπ—Œπ—π—…π—’, π—π—ˆπ—ˆ π—‹π–Ύπ–Όπ—„π—…π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œπ—…π—’ and too π–Ώπ–Ίπ—Œπ—. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‰ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝖺 𝖻𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗁, π—‡π—ˆ 𝗆𝖺𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋 π—π—ˆπ— 𝗍𝗂𝗋𝖾𝖽 π—ˆπ—‹ π—π—ˆπ— 𝖺𝗇𝖼𝗂𝖾𝗇𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–»π–Ύπ–Όπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύ. π–²π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—π—‚π—†π–Ύπ—Œ, π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π–»π—‹π—Žπ—π–Ίπ—… π—π—ˆ π—Žπ—Œ 𝖺𝗅𝗅, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ π—ˆπ–Ώπ—π–Ύπ—‡ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇 π—‡π—ˆπ—, π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝖺 𝗉𝖺𝗍𝗁 π—ˆπ–Ώ π–½π–Ύπ—π–Ίπ—Œπ—π–Ίπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡ 𝖻𝖾𝗁𝗂𝗇𝖽 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž π–½π—ˆπ—‡β€™π— 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾 π—†π—Žπ–Όπ— π–Ίπ–»π—ˆπ—Žπ— 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π–½π–Ύπ—Œπ—π—‹π—Žπ–Όπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 π—Žπ—Œ 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁, π—ˆπ—‹ π—π—ˆπ— 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖽 𝗂𝗍 π—‚π—Œ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ π—π—ˆ 𝖼𝗅𝖺𝗐 π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗐𝖺𝗒 π—ˆπ—Žπ— π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π–Όπ—‹π—Žπ—Œπ—π—‚π—‡π—€ π—†π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π–Όπ–Ύ π—ˆπ—‡ π—Žπ—Œ. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž π—Œπ—‚π—†π—‰π—…π—’ 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 π—€π—ˆπ—‚π—‡π—€ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—†π—ˆπ—π–Ύ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‹π–½ π–Ίπ—Œ π—π—π—ˆπ—Žπ—€π— 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 π—‚π—Œ π—‡π—ˆπ— π—†π—Žπ–Όπ— π–Ύπ—…π—Œπ–Ύ π—π—ˆ π–½π—ˆ.

𝖠𝗍 π—π—‚π—†π–Ύπ—Œ, 𝗐𝖾 π—Œπ–Ύπ–Ύ π—€π—…π—‚π—†π—‰π—Œπ–Ύπ—Œ π—ˆπ–Ώ π–Όπ—ˆπ—†π—‰π–Ίπ—Œπ—Œπ—‚π—ˆπ—‡ π–Όπ—ˆπ—†π—‚π—‡π—€ π–Ώπ—‹π—ˆπ—† π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–³π—π—ˆπ—Œπ–Ύ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π—π—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ, 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—ƒπ—Žπ—Œπ— π–Ύπ—‡π—ˆπ—Žπ—€π— π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ π—π—ˆ 𝖼𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—π—ˆ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗂𝖽𝖾𝖺 π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗂𝗇. π–³π—π—ˆπ—Œπ–Ύ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π—π—Œ 𝗐𝖾 𝖻𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 π—π—‚π—π—π—ˆπ—Žπ— π—π—ˆπ—ˆ π—†π—Žπ–Όπ— π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—π—‹π—‚π–Όπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡, 𝗐𝖺𝗅𝗄 π–Ίπ—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½ 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝗇𝗂𝗆𝖻𝗅𝖾𝗋, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—Œπ—†π—‚π—…π–Ύ π—‚π—‡π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–Ίπ–½ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝖼𝗋𝗒. 𝖨𝗇 π—π—π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύ π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π—π—Œ, 𝗐𝖾 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. 𝖢𝖾 π—‰π—Žπ— π–Ίπ—Œπ—‚π–½π–Ύ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύπ—‡π—π—†π–Ύπ—‡π— π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. 𝖢𝖾 π–½π—‚π—Œπ–Όπ–Ίπ—‹π–½ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π–Ώπ—‹π—Žπ—Œπ—π—‹π–Ίπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡ 𝗐𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 π—π—ˆπ—π–Ίπ—‹π–½π—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝖾 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π—π—π–Ίπ—‡π—„π–Ώπ—Žπ—… 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖺𝖻𝗅𝖾 π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—π—ˆπ— 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 π—„π—‚π—‡π–½π—‡π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ. π–³π—π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π—π—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ίπ—…π—…π—ˆπ— π—Žπ—Œ π—π—ˆ 𝗀𝖾𝗍 π—Žπ—‰, π–½π—Žπ—Œπ— π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹π—Œπ–Ύπ—…π—π–Ύπ—Œ π—ˆπ–Ώπ–Ώ, 𝖽𝗋𝗒 π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—‹π—Œ, π—Œπ—π—‚π–Όπ—„ 𝖺 π—‰π—…π–Ίπ—Œπ—π–Ύπ—‹ π—ˆπ—‡ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–»π—‹π—ˆπ—„π–Ύπ—‡π—‡π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—†π—ˆπ—π–Ύ π—ˆπ—‡π–Όπ–Ύ π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ 𝖺𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗉𝖺𝖼𝖾. 𝖢𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 π—π—ˆ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—…π—…π—ˆπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—Œπ—…π—ˆπ—π—…π—’ π—π—ˆ 𝗀𝖾𝗍 π–Ίπ—Œ π—†π—Žπ–Όπ— π–½π—‚π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‡π–Όπ–Ύ 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗐𝖾𝖾𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—Žπ—Œ π–Ίπ—Œ 𝗐𝖾 𝖼𝖺𝗇, π–»π—Žπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–½π—ˆπ—‡β€™π— π–Ίπ—…π—…π—ˆπ— π—Žπ—Œ π—π—ˆ 𝖿𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝖻𝖾𝗁𝗂𝗇𝖽, π—Œπ—ˆ 𝗐𝖾 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 π—Žπ—‰ 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—π—‹π—‚π—„π–Ύ. 𝖢𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗍𝖾𝗆𝗉𝖾𝗋 π—π—ˆ π—‚π—‡π–½π—Žπ–Όπ–Ύ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗇𝖾𝗑𝗍 π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π— π—ˆπ–Ώ π–½π—‚π—Œπ—π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ. 𝖢𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—π—ˆ π—‰π—ˆπ—‚π—‡π— π—ˆπ—Žπ— π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Ώπ–Ίπ—‚π—…π—Žπ—‹π–Ύπ—Œ. 𝖢𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—… π—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ 𝖽𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗆 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ π–Όπ—ˆπ—Žπ—‹π–Ίπ—€π–Ύ.

π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗄 π—ˆπ—‡ π—Žπ—Œ 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‰ π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‡π–½ π—Œπ—π—‚π—…π—… π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Œπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ 𝗐𝖾 π—…π—ˆπ—π–Ύ, 𝗒𝖾𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 π—‰π—‹π—ˆπ—€π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œπ—‚π—‡π—€ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝖾𝖿𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗁𝗂𝗇𝖽, 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—Œπ–Ίπ—†π–Ύ 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž π—π—π—‹π—Žπ—Œπ— π—‹π–Ίπ—“π—ˆπ—‹-π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‹π—‰ π—‰π–Ίπ—‡π—€π—Œ π—‚π—‡π—π—ˆ π—Žπ—Œ, π—π—π—‹π—Žπ—Œπ— π—Žπ—Œ π—‚π—‡π—π—ˆ 𝖺 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—€π—€π—’ 𝗁𝖺𝗓𝖾, 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—†π—‚π—‡π–½π—Œ π–Όπ—…π—Žπ—π—π–Ύπ—‹π–Ύπ–½ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖿𝗂𝗅𝗅 π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Ύπ—’π–Ύπ—Œ 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 π–Ώπ—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ— π—‰π—Žπ–½π–½π—…π–Ύπ—Œ. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž 𝗐𝖾𝖺𝗋 π—Žπ—Œ π–½π—ˆπ—π—‡, 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 π—Žπ—Œ π–½π—‚π—Œπ—π—‹π–Ίπ—Žπ—€π—π— 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π–Ύπ—‘π—π–Ίπ—Žπ—Œπ—π–Ύπ–½. π–³π—π–Ίπ—β€™π—Œ π—π—ˆπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗐𝗂𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 𝖼𝗅𝖺𝗂𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—π—‚π–Όπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—’. 𝖢𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗅 π—„π—‡π—ˆπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. 𝖢𝖾’𝗏𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗆𝖾𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝖾’𝗏𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝖺 π—‹π—Žπ—‡-𝗂𝗇 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗋𝖾 π–Όπ—Žπ—‹π—‹π–Ύπ—‡π— 𝗂𝗇 π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—…π—‚π—π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝖾 𝗂𝗇𝗁𝖺𝗅𝖾, 𝖾𝗑𝗁𝖺𝗅𝖾, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖺 𝖽𝖺𝗋𝗄 π–Όπ—…π—ˆπ—Žπ–½ π—ˆπ—π–Ύπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ. π– π—Œ π—π—π—ˆπ—Žπ—€π— π—ˆπ—‡ 𝗋𝖾𝗉𝖾𝖺𝗍, π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽 π—Žπ—Œ π—ˆπ–Ώ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Ίπ—Žπ—π—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π—π—’, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗐𝖾 π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‡π–½ 𝗂𝗇 π–Ώπ—‹π—ˆπ—‡π— π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—†π—‚π—‹π—‹π—ˆπ—‹, π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗂𝗆𝗉𝖺𝖼𝗍 π—ˆπ—‡ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—…π—‚π—π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖺𝗉𝗉𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗅𝗒 π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‹π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝖺𝗍 π—Žπ—Œ. 𝖳𝗁𝖾 π–Ώπ—‹π—ˆπ—π—‡ π—…π—‚π—‡π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗏𝖾𝗋, 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗆𝖺𝗍𝗁 π—ˆπ–Ώ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝖺𝖻𝗂𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗒 π—π—ˆ π—†π—ˆπ—π–Ύ π—π—ˆπ—ˆ π–Ώπ–Ίπ—Œπ—. 𝖳𝗁𝖾 π–Ώπ—Žπ—‹π—‹π—ˆπ—π—Œ π–Ίπ—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Ύπ—’π–Ύπ—Œ π—†π—Žπ—…π—π—‚π—‰π—…π—’ π–Ίπ—…π—†π—ˆπ—Œπ— 𝖽𝖺𝗂𝗅𝗒, 𝖺 π–Όπ—ˆπ—‡π—Œπ–Ύπ—Šπ—Žπ–Ύπ—‡π–Όπ–Ύ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—‹π—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—‹π–Ύπ—†π—‚π—‡π–½π—Œ π—Žπ—Œ π—π—ˆπ— 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 π—ˆπ–Ώ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹π—Œπ–Ύπ—…π–Ώ π—’π—ˆπ—Žβ€™π—π–Ύ 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗇 π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ 𝗐𝖾 π—…π—ˆπ—π–Ύ. 𝖳𝗁𝖾 π—€π—‹π—ˆπ—ˆπ—π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝗏𝖾𝖽 π–Ίπ—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—†π—ˆπ—Žπ—π—π—Œ 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖾𝗏𝗂𝖽𝖾𝗇𝖼𝖾 π—ˆπ–Ώ π—‰π—‹π–Ίπ—’π–Ύπ—‹π—Œ 𝗐𝖾 π—Œπ–Ύπ—‡π— π—Žπ—‰ π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—…π—ˆπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–½π—ˆπ—π—‡, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇 π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—‰π–Ύπ–Ύπ–½ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—Žπ—‰ 𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗂𝗇.

π–―π–Ύπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‰π—Œ, 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—‰π—Žπ— π—Žπ—Œ π—π—π—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—€π— 𝖺𝗅𝗅 π—π—π—‚π—Œ π–Ίπ—€π—ˆπ—‡π—‚π—“π—‚π—‡π—€ 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗇, π—ˆπ—‹ 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—Œπ–Ύπ–Ύ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—π—ˆπ—‹π—…π–½ π–Όπ—‹π—Žπ—†π–»π—…π—‚π—‡π—€ π–Ίπ—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½ π—Žπ—Œ, π—ˆπ—‹ 𝗆𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—…π—ˆπ–Ίπ–½ π—€π–Ύπ—π—Œ π—π—ˆπ—ˆ 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗒 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—‚π—β€™π—Œ 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 π—π—ˆ 𝗅𝖺𝗒 π–½π—ˆπ—π—‡ π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—‰π—ˆπ—‡π—Œ, π—‰π–Ύπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‰π—Œ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝖺𝗇 π—‚π—‡π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‡π—, π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—ƒπ—ˆπ–». 𝖠 π—ƒπ—ˆπ–» 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—π—ˆπ—‡β€™π— π–Ίπ—…π—…π—ˆπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—π—ˆ 𝗐𝖺𝗂𝗍 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Žπ—Œ. π–³π—ˆ π—Œπ–Ίπ—’ π—€π—ˆπ—ˆπ–½π–»π—’π–Ύ π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ. π–³π—ˆ π—Œπ–Ίπ—’ π—π–Ύπ—…π—…π—ˆ π—π—ˆ π—Œπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ 𝗇𝖾𝗐. π–³π—ˆ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ. π–³π—ˆ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π–Ύπ—. π–³π—ˆ π—Œπ–Ίπ—’ 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾𝗇’𝗍 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗇 π—Žπ—Œ 𝖺 π—†π—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—‡π— π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹. π–³π—ˆ π—…π—ˆπ—π–Ύ π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ. π–³π—ˆ 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 π—…π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ. π–³π—ˆ π—π—ˆπ—…π–Ύπ—‹π–Ίπ—π–Ύ π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ. π–³π—ˆ 𝖻𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗒 π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ. π–³π—ˆ 𝗍𝖺𝗄𝖾 π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ π–Όπ—π–Ίπ—‡π–Όπ–Ύπ—Œ. π–³π—ˆ 𝖽𝖾𝖺𝗅 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 π—‹π–Ύπ—€π—‹π–Ύπ—π—Œ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—‹π–Ύπ—†π—ˆπ—‹π—Œπ–Ύ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—Žπ—Œπ—Žπ–Ίπ—…π—…π—’ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—‰π–Ύπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‰π—Œ π–Ίπ—…π—π–Ίπ—’π—Œ, π–Όπ—ˆπ—†π–Ύπ—Œ π—π—ˆπ—ˆ 𝗅𝖺𝗍𝖾. π–³π—ˆ 𝖿𝗂𝗑 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—‚π—Œ π–»π—‹π—ˆπ—„π–Ύπ—‡. π–³π—ˆ π–Ίπ–»π—Œπ—ˆπ—‹π–» π—π—‚π—π—π—ˆπ—Žπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—‰π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύπ—‡π–Όπ–Ύ π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—‡π–½π—‚π—‡π—€ 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗒. π–―π–Ύπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‰π—Œ, 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Όπ—ˆπ—‡π—Œπ—‚π–½π–Ύπ—‹ 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗍𝖺𝗄𝖾 π–Ώπ—‹π—ˆπ—† π—Žπ—Œ, π—‰π–Ύπ—‹π—π–Ίπ—‰π—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇, π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—ƒπ—ˆπ–».

𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—π—‹π—‚π–Όπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡π—Œ. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Όπ—‹π—Žπ–Ύπ—…π—π—’. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ π–Όπ—ˆπ—‡π—π—‹π—ˆπ—… π—ˆπ—π–Ύπ—‹ 𝗆𝗒 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—‡π—ˆπ— π—‰π–Ίπ—Žπ—Œπ—‚π—‡π—€. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—…π—‚π—‡π—€ 𝗆𝗒 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍-π—‚π–Ώβ€™π—Œ. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗆𝗒 π—Œπ—π–Ίπ—π—π–Ύπ—‹π–Ύπ–½ 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗍, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—π—ˆπ—‹π–½π—Œ π–»π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–Όπ—‚π—‡π—€ π–Ίπ—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½ π—‚π—‡π—Œπ—‚π–½π–Ύ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗆𝖾. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—Œπ–Ίπ–½π—‚π—Œπ—π—‚π–Ό π—π—ˆπ—Žπ—‡π–½π—Œ, 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π–»π—Žπ—…π—€π–Ύ 𝗂𝗇 𝗆𝗒 π—π—π—‹π—ˆπ–Ίπ—, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—‰π—‚π–Ύπ–Όπ–Ύπ—Œ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗆𝖾 π—’π—ˆπ—Žβ€™π—π–Ύ 𝗋𝗂𝗉𝗉𝖾𝖽 π—ˆπ—Žπ—. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 π—…π—ˆπ—π–Ύ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—π–Ίπ—Œ π—‡π—ˆπ—π—π–Ύπ—‹π–Ύ π—π—ˆ π—€π—ˆ π–Ίπ—‡π—’π—†π—ˆπ—‹π–Ύ, 𝖾𝗑𝖼𝖾𝗉𝗍 𝗍𝗋𝗂𝖼𝗄𝗅𝖾 π–Ώπ—‹π—ˆπ—† 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π–Όπ—ˆπ—‹π—‡π–Ύπ—‹ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗆𝗒 π–Ύπ—’π–Ύπ—Œ. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺 𝗉𝖺𝗅𝖾 π—π—π—‚π—Œπ—‰π–Ύπ—‹ 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋 π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—…π—‚π—‡π—€ 𝗆𝗒 𝗉𝖾𝖺𝖼𝖾. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—‡π—‚π—€π—π—π—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗆𝗒 π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύπ—‡π—π—†π–Ύπ—‡π— π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—„π–Ύπ–Ύπ—‰π—Œ 𝗆𝖾 π—Žπ—‰. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—π—Žπ—‹π—π—‚π—‡π—€ 𝗆𝖾. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗋𝖺𝗂𝗇𝗒 π–½π–Ίπ—’π—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—π—‹π—‚π–Όπ—„π—…π–Ύπ—Œ 𝖻𝗒 π—Œπ—ˆ π—Œπ—…π—ˆπ—π—…π—’, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—Œπ—Žπ—‡π—‡π—’ π–½π–Ίπ—’π—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗋𝖺𝖼𝖾 𝖻𝗒 π—π—ˆπ—ˆ π–Ώπ–Ίπ—Œπ—. 𝖨 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝗍𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗋𝗒, 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗒𝖺𝗅 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π–½π–Ύπ–Όπ–Ύπ—‚π—π–Ώπ—Žπ—…π—‡π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ. 𝖨. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ π–Έπ—ˆπ—Ž.

π–―π—…π–Ύπ–Ίπ—Œπ–Ύ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾 π—π—ˆπ—ˆ. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ π—π—ˆπ—…π–½π—‚π—‡π—€ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—‰π—ˆπ—‡π—Œπ—‚π–»π—…π–Ύ π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—π—π–Ύπ—Œπ–Ύ π–Όπ—Žπ—-π—ˆπ–Ώπ–Ώπ—Œ. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ 𝗆𝗒 π–Όπ—’π—‡π—‚π–Όπ—‚π—Œπ—† π—π—ˆπ—π–Ίπ—‹π–½π—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ π—‡π—ˆπ— 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—π—ˆ 𝖻𝖾 π—’π—ˆπ—Žπ—‹ 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ 𝖻𝗅𝖺𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—π—π—‚π—‡π—€π—Œ 𝖨 π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—Žπ—…π–½ 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 π—Œπ–Ίπ—‚π–½ 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—Žπ—…π–½ 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 π–½π—ˆπ—‡π–Ύ. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ π—‡π—ˆπ— 𝗍𝖺𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—Œπ–Ύπ—‹π—‚π—ˆπ—Žπ—Œπ—…π—’, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝖻𝖾𝗅𝗂𝖾𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖿𝖺𝗂𝗋. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ 𝖿𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖻𝖾𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ίπ—€π–Ίπ—‚π—‡π—Œπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹ 𝗉𝗋𝖺𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 π–Ίπ—€π–Ίπ—‚π—‡π—Œπ— π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π—‡π—ˆπ— 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—‚π—†π—‰π—‹π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œπ–Ύπ–½ 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 π—‡π—ˆπ— 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 π—π—ˆ 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖽 π–Όπ—ˆπ—†π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π— 𝗂𝗇 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž. π–₯π—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾.

𝖳𝗂𝗆𝖾, π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹π—€π—‚π—π–Ύ 𝗆𝖾 π–Ώπ—ˆπ—‹ π–½π–Ύπ—Œπ—‰π—‚π—Œπ—‚π—‡π—€ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž.

π—ͺπ—Άπ˜π—΅ π—Ÿπ—Όπ˜ƒπ—², 𝗔𝗹𝗢𝗰𝗲 π—©π—Ÿ

CHARLIZE, YOU SPELLED TRIBE WRONG

Dear Charlize,

AFRIKAANS IS A DYING LANGUAGE? YOU SPELLED TRIBE WRONG

44 Afrikaans speaking South Africans, you say? Afrikaans speaking South AfricansΒ aren’tΒ ignorant, stupid or allowing our language to die. What weΒ areΒ is a nation with a great love for our Afrikaans language, still raising our children to speak Afrikaans at home and as their first language at school, and they in turn, raise their children to embrace and carry forward our language, culture, heritage and values.

What is dying, and what isn’t very helpful is a tribe rich in language and culture, murdered in our homes, on our highways, at gas stations, in parks, and just around every corner and turn. What isn’t helpful is that we as a minority are being persecuted, discriminated against, and hated.

The Afrikaans tribe in South Africa could never have predicted the slow progression of our eradication that was implemented right under our noses in the early 90’s titled ANC Circular 213-6. We, you included, were so seduced by Nelson Mandela and his promises of freedom, equality and a rainbow nation that we failed to see the disaster that began threatening our very existence over a period of 28+ years. We were intrigued by the newly released Nelson Mandela who swore that there would be no more fighting and no vengeance by whatever the sins of our forefathers were. There would be no more hatred.

Yet here we are. 2022. The tribe, not the language, is facing extinction. Our tribe is dying. We are persecuted. Murdered. We are excluded from the job market, schools, universities, health care and sports only to name but a few. We are hated. Loathed. Targeted. Blamed. Branded thieves and second-class humans. We are being held responsible for things that are claimed to have happened but have never been proved. We are resented for the implementation of apartheid by the British – yet, abolished by the Afrikaans tribe. We are threatened and we wait for these threats to be carried out.

We wait. Our weapons meant to defend ourselves, have been taken away from us. We are a nation disarmed. Yet, the very weapons confiscated from us, are used in the murders of not only our farmers, but also in home invasions in our suburbs. We wait. Our homes are infiltrated by attackers seeking to eradicate our very existence. We wait. Our police or military can’t and won’t protect us. They withdraw from riots and protests; they are afraid of the brutality of the perpetrators which, as with our farm murders and home invasions, includes members of law enforcement. We wait. No other country offers ALL minority citizens of South Africa a safe place. We wait.

Our president is silent, yet – he excuses the hatred spewed by the majority black South Africans against the minority South Africans. He lies about land grabs, expropriation without compensation, and the murders to the rest of the world. Not once has he spoken out against all the anti-white laws crippling all South Africans. Not once has he condemned the cruel and barbaric aggression towards the minority South Africans. Not once has he condemned the hatred and incitement of murder through so-called struggle songs. Not once has he posed as president of South Africa but rather, as president of the ANC and enforces the ANC law and at the same time, condoning the actions and incitements by the EFF and the BFLF.

Our dying tribe is having our taxes, our mines, our municipalities, our schools, our law enforcement, our military, our hospitals, our minerals and all that was once supreme in this country, stolen by people calling for our slaughter. These are the people killing the old, raping our babies, torturing our women and children while cutting away the eyelids of our men so that they can watch unbearable cruelty unfold before them before ultimately, killing them. These are the people that have infested South Africa while attempting to destroy our language, our heritage, our culture, and all that once made South Africa great.

Our history no longer matters and is stripped from our schools and libraries, where generations from now will never know the true events of our country. The wars we once fought in Afrikaans for the freedom of our people will mean nothing β€“ as though it never happened. Our lives don’t matter and that of our families’, don’t count.

We face daily protests, rapes, murders, torturing and beatings. We are no longer able to provide for our families and so many have found themselves in patched-together squatter camps. Education systems have failed. Health care has failed. Freedom is lost. Food is unaffordable. Citizens are confined to the four walls of their homes. We are hijacked on our highways and roads. Our teachers are assaulted by the youngest of students. The old and fragile are mercilessly assaulted and our babies raped.

All of us affected by the fact that we are being forced out of our country, unable to secure employment by the broad-based black economic empowerment laws, our restrictions in sport, universities, public service, and expropriation without compensation of property, not just farms, want to make it clear that it’s not our language dying, but our tribe.

To date, we are suffering brutal deaths, and our elderly, children, women, and men are mercilessly tortured before killed. We are faced with hate speech where our slaughter is being openly called for, yet our president and government refuses to address any of these issues. We rely on the law to uphold the South African law, instead, the ANC terrorist law prevails.

You spelled tribe wrong.

With love,
No. 44

Her Name Is Grief

I met someone on a day much like today. She wasn’t kind, and she wasn’t someone I wanted to let in. Something about her was off, threatening and heartless, but on the other side of my front door, she kept knocking and calling for me.

I tried to ignore her, hoping she’d give up and leave. I closed my ears and busied my eyes, but her presence was all around me and my home. She made it clear that she wasn’t leaving until I invited her in. She had nowhere else to be and no-one else she’d rather spend some time with.

She’s not the type I would normally let in, or invite into my home. I could feel into the very core of me that she was trouble. I knew, when I first saw her that we wouldn’t get along and I sensed we had nothing much in common. She appeared as though the life was drained from her, and there was something in her eyes that unsettled me, leaving me with an uncomfortable vulnerability. Her voice was high-pitched and her persistence was met with urgency.

I tried to make excuses for net letting her in. I asked her to reschedule. I questioned whether she had the right address because I had never seen her before. I tried to tell her that I was busy, I had errands to run, people to catch up with, phone calls to make, messages to send, a house to clean, a load of laundry and a trip to the stores. She said she wasn’t leaving until I gave her my time.

So, I stepped aside and invited her in. Only, it wasn’t for a few minutes or an hour. Once I let her in, she became comfortable in my space and wouldn’t leave. She shadowed me during the day doing day to day chores. She was there when I took a bath, avoided a phone call, took a nap, and especially at night, her presence was overwhelming and she wouldn’t stop talking, reminiscing and reminding me of my failures. She was so loud at night and when I placed my hands over my ears, her awful voice grew louder and louder in my head. She wouldn’t keep quiet, and wouldn’t let me sleep.

She was in the passenger seat while I was driving, in the store when I was pushing a cart, in the kitchen when I was cooking and in the living room while flipping through channels.

She was overbearing, hurtful and unkind. She wouldn’t let met breathe without her. She took away all the things I valued, cherished and loved to do. After a while, she kept me home, hid my perfume, hair brush and make-up. The laundry piled up, but she didn’t care. The dust moved in when she did, but she didn’t care. She brought me to tears more often than not, and took away my dignity, hope and joy. She stole what was important in my life from me and she made me question everything I thought I knew. She told me over and over again that God had forgotten me, and that she was in control whether or not I liked it. I had invited her in.

She said that I was a failure as a human being, a daughter and a sister. She said there were things that I just should have known, but I couldn’t even do that. She said that I was ugly inside and out, and that my tears were too late. Wisdom came too late for me. A hard heart took too long to soften. It was just too late for me.

She spoke for me. She changed my routine to place me at my most vulnerable. Each day she spent with me, her grip on me grew stronger and stronger.

She just wouldn’t let go and controlled more and more of me until one day, when I thought I was drowning in her shadow, God stepped in, and brought in a little army who overpowered her, and banished her from my home and my life.

They stood watch until I was able to free myself from the misery she cast over me. She left, reluctantly. Humiliated and defeated. She left and I was finally freed from the prison she locked me in for months. I could breathe again. For the first time in months, I didn’t hear her voice when I closed my eyes. I slept. I could sleep. I dusted and did the laundry. I took a walk around outside and took care of the autumn leaves. I messaged friends. I spoke without a restricting lump in my throat.

She left and it all just hits differently now.

I pray for mercy for the next home she gets her claws into. If you let her in, remind her that she is nothing more than a guest in your home. Kick her out when she overstays her welcome and remember, she lies.

Her name is Grief.

With love,
Alice VL